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Rocking to Lee McDerment!

Okay. I drew Lee McDerment. He is an awesome worship leader at NewSpring Church. He sings, writes songs, plays piano and guitar. He truly worships God with all his heart. Since I am also working on learning guitar and keyboard and worshipping God, Lee is such a great inspiration. He gives me such confidence and courage when I think about pursuing my musical dreams of worshipping God through music on stage.

He has a CD, A Matchlight in the Dark. I have it!! It is awesome! You should totally check it out. Check out some of his stuff on YouTube: here.

Anyway, this picture took 9 hours, and of course I rocked out to some of his music while drawing it. 😀

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Reference: here.

Quite the looker, isn’t he? LOL. But seriously, check his stuff out! I’ve always wanted to change people’s hearts through music. Sway them with the love of God. As Flobots say in their song, Handlebars, “I can lead a nation with a microphone.” And like them and Lee McD, I definitely intend to!

Faith, *Poetry Corner- “Despite a Circumstance”

Despite a Circumstance

Sometimes I look out my window
And I still cry
For the times that I’m alone
I still ache and sting and burn
Like touching a stove
For the love in my heart has been neglected
Seems that no ones wants to share in its beauty
And I lay my head down on my pillow and cry

And each salty tear runs down my cheek
And I just want to close my eyes
And cease to exist
But what’s the point of thinking that?
I still love being alive
Despite
Not having a boyfriend, not being married
I still love being alive
Even when my sister gives me hell
I still love being alive
When I stop feeling God so near
Somewhere, deep inside, I still know he’s here
I still like smiling
Despite the million times I’ve cried
I still like living
Despite the million times I’ve died
I still like dreaming
Despite the million times I’ve been forced
Into a harsh reality
I still love who I am
Despite what people think of me

And I know that even God in heaven
Looks at my tears
And sees the hope I have of tomorrow
The hope he has given me
Because when I am alone, staring out my window
Or head burried down in my pillow
I feel beautiful from the
Inside out
Because God lets me feel more
Beauty than I have pain
And what is a friend
Who would let me feel sorrow in vain?
He is a fountain of love
I drink from again and again
And again

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Somedays I roll out of bed and feel like I could just die. I don’t know why my life is made like this. Why sometimes, I am the happiest person in the world, and other times, I just don’t know what to do with myself except rot in a corner. Sometimes I feel so elated, sometimes, I feel so down I dream of cutting myself… but I know Christ is near because when I think those thoughts, he pushes them away and refuses to let me think them. So some inspiration:

“But those who suffer he delivers in their suffering; he speaks to them in their affliction.” Job 36:15

“Remember your word to your servant, for you have given me hope. My comfort in my suffering is this: Your promise preserves my life. The arrogant mock me without restraint, but I do not turn from your law.” Psalm 119:49-51

“He said to her, ‘Daughter, your faith has healed you. Go in peace and be freed from your suffering.'” Mark 5:34

Somedays, I wake up thinking this has got to be the last day I can stomach, I can’t have any more hope in this pathetic life. But it is amazing how just a little light outshines all the darkness. Just by holding on one more day, and continuing this pattern day after day, I see myself getting better, being happier, feeling like a more whole person.

Sometimes, it seems like life is ripped from right underneath me and all I want to do is die in peace. But I have always had an eternal flame of light in my heart, outshining all my bitter darkness, that keeps me pressing hard into tomorrow. I know it will be okay, even if it’s not.

With Christ, I get to live above my circumstances. I can be treated harshly, yelled at, cursed at, hate everything about this world, and still feel a sense of peace in my spirit. It is the peace of Jesus himself, for he is the Prince of Peace. There is nothing like finding peace in the most difficult of places. And that is why I trust in him- because I hunger, just like everyone else- for that peace.

Let go of your worries, breathe, and trust in him.

“OVERCOMERS ANONYMOUS”, by Kandee Johnson

I read this this morning, and it inspired me to have a wonderful day, and leave past failures behind. This girl, Kandee Johnson, also inspired me to post much more on my blog. I love blogs that inspire people in all sorts of ways, that’s why I’m so attracted to her blog, LOL. I was having a kind of bad morning but this turned me around and allowed me to have a fresh, new start.

Here is the post: OVERCOMERS ANONYMOUS, by Kandee Johnson:

“*Are you having bad day?
*Or did someone say something about you or to you that hurt you?
*Is your relationship making you feel upset, sad or frustrated?
*Are you dealing with money troubles or problems with your job?
*Or maybe you just don’t like where you’re at in life?

I’ve felt all these things. I had a day that was pretty overwhelming for me a couple days ago…one of those days where in the silence of just hearing the shower running while you try to wash off the worries of the day…the only thing to listen to is the thoughts in your mind…and sometimes they just start getting you down.

Do NOT listen to those thoughts that say:
“yeah, you’re life is messed up”
“yes I am a loser”
“I’m doing nothing with my life?”
“what am I going to do for money…I feel like a failure”
“what is my life worth anyway?”….

You are precious, valuable and worth all the treasure in the world!

You, me…we all can be OVERCOMERS! We can overcome any bad day, relationship, heartache, hater, sadness, depression, lack of money…anything!

Remember: Leave your past behind you…your future doesn’t need you to bring you “past-port” to get in!

You are not limited by mistakes in your past or what someone says you are….you are only limited by WHAT YOU THINK ABOUT YOU! AND let me tell you- YOU ARE MARVELOUS!!!!

Your future is waiting for you….for you to pick yourself up…and say, “NO WAY! I’m not letting anyone’s words or any of these circumstances try to stop the sparkle that I have in my heart…and the happiness that is waiting for me in the future.

You are free baby! Free to be wonderful. Free to shine! Free to say, “I’m not a prisoner of my past, or my bad day, or what someone said about me……I am free to be happy, free to shine the love that’s in my heart, free to show the world the gifts and talents that are in my heart!”

You are free to walk with colorful-balloons of happiness in your heart where ever you go! Don’t let anyone or any circumstance steal your joy!

I’ve been so broke and penniless, but the joy and hope I had in my heart said, “you may be feeling down….but you sure aren’t out! this is just gonna make my success story that much better!”

If today, or yesterday was a bad day for you…or you’ve been fighting off sadness or depression….the good news is: It may have been in your yesterday….but it doesn’t need to be in your “right now”…or your tomorrow!

Send those gloomies packin’ right back to where they came from….you’ve got too much life to live to let a little “junky” downer thoughts try to weigh you down….I want you to walk holding onto the ballooons of hope, joy, excitement and love today!

Expect great things…and you’ll settle for no less. Expect the worse…and you’re almost guaranteed to get it! ha ha ha….The only limitations we have are the ones we put on ourselves!

DECIDE right this second: I’m leaving my past, my yeterday, and all that’s troubling me…right here…it’s not coming with me into this next minute….let all those “gloomy balloons” out of your hand to fly far, far away. This is your life to shine…make this day great…shine some love and happiness…and watch it come back to you!

huge love and balloons…your kandee

REMEMBER: we won’t ever be overwhelmed….but we WILL overcome anything and anyone that tries to overwhelm us! OVERCOMERS unite!

Release all those balloons of worry and sadness….and let hope and love from my heart to yours sparkle all day long!!! I’m sending a huge hug through the computer to you right now!

And please, feel free to pass this message on, re-tweet it, or post it on someone’s wall on facebook….let’s make a sparkly change in someone else’s day too…you are always free to share anything I write my precious ones! love ya! ”

The post is here. Her blog: CLICK!!

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