I have been entertaining the idea of sponsoring a child through this program called Compassion.
It costs $38 a month, and you get to provide for the physical needs of a child, such as food and clothing. You also get to help them with their spiritual needs, telling them about Jesus, and how he offers strength for them, even during hard times.
Even when they are in poverty, he places an anchor on their soul of love and mercy, in the midst of a listless sea that keeps them turning in poverty and sorrow. He grounds them and gives them peace, where they otherwise could not find it. I have learned that during hard times, Jesus will carry faithful people through all kinds of turmoil and they will come out on the other side:
“When you pass through the waters, I will be with you. When you cross rivers, you will not drown. When you walk through fire, you will not be burned, nor will the flames hurt you.” Isaiah 43:2
I work at Chick-fil-A, make minimum wage, and I really would like to do this. I can tell them about Jesus through letters I could send them each month, and they would write back to me. They would get to be emotionally connect to someone, and in a sense, they are my child (really Jesus’s child, he’s just using me to get to them :)), and I adopt the responsibility of taking care of them. I have money saved away, and I am working a lot.
My mom thinks I should give money another way, because it really is a lot of responsibilty. I will pray on it more. I am planning on sponsoring them on Christmas day, but I want to keep getting pulled by the Holy Spirit to do it, because I know that if he tells me to do it, I am supposed to do God’s work and ignore what my mother says.
There are other ways to give and tell about Christ, but my heart breaks for all the young children all around the world who just need to know of Jesus’s love, his compassion and friendship. My heart breaks because I could take this opportunity.
How could I turn away from them? I feel like I am so capable of doing this. I get so angry at my mom, and I know she is just looking out for me, but I get angry when she tells me to just save my money. It’s like really? I’ve already put a lot away and what do I do with what’s left? She says just to save that, too, or buy something I want.
But what I want deep down in my heart is to sponsor a child. Broken heart in a world of distress. It’s like my mom is looking out for me, but my heart is too big for Jesus that I can’t freakin’ help but give and give and give, and even after I give, I have enough for myself.
But I will pray. Anyone have any idea what I should do? I know Jesus won’t be mad at me if I do it. I am just trying to consider the weight of the responsibilty, looking after a child for years. For $38 a month, I’d still have more than enough money to do what I want. I’m only 18, though. Should I tie down my life with such responsibilty? For the sake of a hurting child?
Jesus worked so hard for us and sacrificed himself, so that we may live instead of him, through him. I want to be self-sacrificial because his love runs through my veins like crazy, and I want to do anything I can to show I love him.
But most likely, I will adopt. I will keep praying. Please keep praying for me. 🙂